For a number of years I lived for the fear of missing out (a.k.a. FOMO). As Nicki Minaj very well said it, I came to win, to conquer, to strive. I felt like I was in a race against time and I must—but must—do everything and anything. I had plans—tons of plans. I didn’t live for today—I lived for tomorrow and the day after and the month after. The verbs that defined me were to want and to plan. I wanted friends, I wanted family, I wanted the best education, I wanted to travel the world, I wanted fancy clothes, basically I wanted it all. I was in a permanent competition with myself and I always aimed for the first prize. I kept pushing and pushing myself out of my comfort zone. I moved from Brasov to Bucharest for university and then, when I was relatively at peace and happy, I packed my suitcase and went to a deserted home-made island in Amsterdam just because I wanted to check that off my to do list.
I do not regret any of my decisions, but I realize that, back then, I never questioned if those things would make me happy. I just knew I wanted them and that was enough.
It all changed in the summer of 2012. I was living abroad for about two years and I came to Bucharest for a month of vacation. I had some sort of a plan of what to do in the fall, but I wasn’t fully convinced. And then, last minute, it hit me. You only live once (a.k.a. YOLO)!!! For the first time I asked myself Sorin, do you really want to move to Brussels—a city you hate—and get a traineeship at the European Commission in the Tax Department??? Well, guess what? I didn’t! So I decided to stay in Bucharest, rented a flat, and transitioned from FOMO to YOLO.
This past year was one of the best of my life. I honestly feel like I am living the life I want to be living. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I found inner peace and stability, I shook off some demons and stopped dragging some horses around, I am surrounded by fabulous people that love me and are always there for me, my family is healthy and doing good, I have a dream job that fulfills me professionally, I’ve started going to the gym and began eating healthy, and, last but not least, I have launched #WeAreFabulous, a project very dear to my heart that is shaping up nicely. Of course not everything is rainbows and butterflies, but I feel blessed. I wake up every day loving my life and that’s huge.
Once I YOLO-ed everything came into place. While I still want things—that’s fundamentally what makes me grow—I don’t plan so much. I became more relaxed and I learnt to be patient. Everything happens for a reason and you just need to give it time. 27 was definitely the golden age, but I plan on rocking my 28. The fabulousness will continue! ;-)
THANK YOU so much Fabulous People for the best wishes and nice words—they made my day! Remember, #YOLO and #WeAreFabulous!